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The U-turn Epiphany

I had an epiphany the other day and have had daily reminders ever since. I have come to realize I’m really hard on myself and on other people. I’m so full of negative self-talk it is no wonder success is an uphill climb.

Just the other day I was driving in Nashville, planning to turn on to I-65 to head back down to Franklin. I was mentally sidetracked and passed my turn.

“You idiot!” 

Surely that’s what I was. Only idiots miss turns; normal people don’t do that. Life is tough for idiots like me.

Then it hit me. I’m not an idiot. I just missed my turn. All I have to do is U-turn and then I will do it right the next time. What an epiphany. It reminded me of my favorite scene in Disney’s The Kid when Russ Duritz (Bruce Willis) excitedly hollered, “I am not a loser!” I had that moment. Despite some of my friends’ repeated reminders, I am not an idiot, loser, moron or any other thing. I’m just a human who makes mistakes sometimes (sometimes frequently and repeatedly).

I can’t tell you how many times I have caught myself saying things like this since then. I publish a blog only to find a misspelled wrod and immediately castigate and berate myself. I answer a question incorrectly or fumble a sentence in a sermon and the names start internally flying. Some of you are saying, “Yeah, but Edwin, you really are an idiot.”

No, actually, I’m not. I’m just a human that makes mistakes.

Now, when I catch myself shaming myself, I remind myself. “Nope, I’m not an idiot, I just missed the turn. I’m just a human who makes mistakes. I’ll make a u-turn and just do it right on the second pass.” 

Have a great 4th of July!

ELC

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July 3, 2008 Posted by | Being human, Making Mistakes, Shame | , , , | 5 Comments